Sick as shit....but life must go on
Damn.......I don't get sick often, but when I do.....I'm sick as shit for real. I seriously believe that you really find out who loves you when you are sick. For 1, I am miserable when I am sick, so anyone who is around me, is ONLY there because they care, and WANT to be there. For 2, I don't feel like doing anything, so whomever asists in my getting well, knows that they can expect absolutely NOTHING from me at that time. For 3, I look like "Who the hell shot Sally" when I am sick. Funny, but oh so true. I am suffereing from extreme exhaustion and fatigue for real. My throat is killing me, and I have a fever.
My job sent me home from work yesterday.......and only 2 people even called to check on me. And of the two, one of them even came by to bring me some soup (which was sooooooo unexpected, but so appreciated) Now I'm not saying this to whine "Oh poor ShellBe" n shit.......I just find it interesting at how much my phone rings when I can do shit for people, vs. when I need people to do something for me!
Either way, everyday more and more is revealed to me about the people whom I surround myself with, I'm just glad that I am getting to see it BEFORE the real dough starts coming in.
On the music-tip............I am currently in a writing frenzy, I have been working on a few songs and a few freestyles for different mixtapes I have been asked to appear on. I'm getting ready to just go into the studio and have a nice 4-6 hour session SOLO........all ME!!!! I am also preparing for my two upcoming shows in mid-February (Feb. 11, Pittsburgh, PA and Feb. 19 Cambridge, MA) I have also been working on my LOOK sorta heavy, since January 1st of this year, I have dropped 12 lbs.....which isn't too bad. If I can drop 8-10 lbs a month, by May/June I should be where I want to be. After February, I might start to post pictures. I have been going to the gym 5-6x a week, and I am trying this new sort of calorie-counting method, of which I think is GREAT because its a lifestyle change, not a DIET. Improving my appearance is definitely going to have a huge affect on my stage show, and my music in general.......if people think I'm cocky now, wait till they see how I do, when I'm REALLY doin'it! LOL
As far as the love-life is concerned...........lately I've really picked up on the fact that dude I was interested in wouldn't know a good thing if it slapped him in the face and said "I'm a good thing bitch, don't you see me?" so no sense in sticking around to see when he's gonna wise-up. So I'm off that one! On another note, I recently met this other dude, who is actually from Boston(YEAH!!!!!), and we seem to be hitting it off well......but he's like 3, ok maybe 4 years younger than me. LOL........I've never dated anyone younger than me, ever! But he seems to be mature, and I've noticed he is more upfront with his feelings. He's very blunt when he doesn't like something, and he just says whats on his mind............if he missed talking to me for a few days, he says that he missed talking to me. I gotta admit thats pretty refreshing! However, I vowed to stay away from industry affiliated people, and he is definitely affiliated with MUSIC. So we'll see what happens, at least he's located in Boston tho!!!!!
Got a meeting tonight with Mike Mac and the Street Radio Team...to discuss the upcoming installment of the very successful Street Radio mixtape series! I am very excited about this.....I'm anxious to know what is going to be said.
Then there's "Stylewars" the monthly MC battle put on by Elementsparty. I wasn't able to make it last month, so I definitely gotta try to muster up some strength to make it out there tonight. We'll see.......hopefully I can ride with Ogun, cuz my car is really acting up right now. Eitherway, I'll try to pull something off!
My job sent me home from work yesterday.......and only 2 people even called to check on me. And of the two, one of them even came by to bring me some soup (which was sooooooo unexpected, but so appreciated) Now I'm not saying this to whine "Oh poor ShellBe" n shit.......I just find it interesting at how much my phone rings when I can do shit for people, vs. when I need people to do something for me!
Either way, everyday more and more is revealed to me about the people whom I surround myself with, I'm just glad that I am getting to see it BEFORE the real dough starts coming in.
On the music-tip............I am currently in a writing frenzy, I have been working on a few songs and a few freestyles for different mixtapes I have been asked to appear on. I'm getting ready to just go into the studio and have a nice 4-6 hour session SOLO........all ME!!!! I am also preparing for my two upcoming shows in mid-February (Feb. 11, Pittsburgh, PA and Feb. 19 Cambridge, MA) I have also been working on my LOOK sorta heavy, since January 1st of this year, I have dropped 12 lbs.....which isn't too bad. If I can drop 8-10 lbs a month, by May/June I should be where I want to be. After February, I might start to post pictures. I have been going to the gym 5-6x a week, and I am trying this new sort of calorie-counting method, of which I think is GREAT because its a lifestyle change, not a DIET. Improving my appearance is definitely going to have a huge affect on my stage show, and my music in general.......if people think I'm cocky now, wait till they see how I do, when I'm REALLY doin'it! LOL
As far as the love-life is concerned...........lately I've really picked up on the fact that dude I was interested in wouldn't know a good thing if it slapped him in the face and said "I'm a good thing bitch, don't you see me?" so no sense in sticking around to see when he's gonna wise-up. So I'm off that one! On another note, I recently met this other dude, who is actually from Boston(YEAH!!!!!), and we seem to be hitting it off well......but he's like 3, ok maybe 4 years younger than me. LOL........I've never dated anyone younger than me, ever! But he seems to be mature, and I've noticed he is more upfront with his feelings. He's very blunt when he doesn't like something, and he just says whats on his mind............if he missed talking to me for a few days, he says that he missed talking to me. I gotta admit thats pretty refreshing! However, I vowed to stay away from industry affiliated people, and he is definitely affiliated with MUSIC. So we'll see what happens, at least he's located in Boston tho!!!!!
Got a meeting tonight with Mike Mac and the Street Radio Team...to discuss the upcoming installment of the very successful Street Radio mixtape series! I am very excited about this.....I'm anxious to know what is going to be said.
Then there's "Stylewars" the monthly MC battle put on by Elementsparty. I wasn't able to make it last month, so I definitely gotta try to muster up some strength to make it out there tonight. We'll see.......hopefully I can ride with Ogun, cuz my car is really acting up right now. Eitherway, I'll try to pull something off!
posted by ShellBe RAW at 9:02 AM
1 Comments:
ShellBe sorry to hear your not feeling good. I hope you get well soon! If you need anything you know you can call and coun't on me. I will get up with you 2night if you make it to 5 seasons. If not I will call to check on you. 1 Luv, Bosslady!
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